Saturday, January 30, 2010

A Poet's Perspective

The Taj Mahal, one of the most beautiful man made structures the world has ever seen, an epitome expression of a King’s love for his wife, is a treat to the visual senses. Anyone who has visited this majestic monument has been enthralled by its baffling beauty. I have a friend who visited the Taj Mahal, and he chose to describe it as a glorified grave! Is it possible that he is describing the same structure?

My friend has a different perspective to life. He calls himself a poet. His views are often out of the ordinary and don’t make sense to most sensible men. That makes his extremely well qualified.

His journey as a poet started when we were in high school, sitting next to each other. It was a mid day of a hot scorching summer! The fans in our class failed to work. Our throats were dry and the fact that we were part of an all boy’s school made us feel even drier. The silver lining, our biology tutor, was intensely describing the parts of a dead and dissected cockroach. Like a bolt out of a clear blue sky, my friend uttered,

“Ah! Those eyes are so cool;
They make me not want to leave school!”

I can tell you that he was not describing the eyes of the cockroach. And I can also tell you, that he was made to leave school for making that statement, though it was a fact.

He then managed to force himself into the armed forces. He was on a demanding, dangerous and deadly mission to destroy a few terrorist camps. On a silent night, in a somber valley, the secret camp was sighted. A fierce gun battle erupted. The sound of the incessant gunfire engulfed the silent valley throughout the night. The stream of bullets and the string of grenades lighted up the night sky like a mini sun would. Before long, it was dawn and the battle was raging on. My friend, lying on the ground, firing at every enemy in sight suddenly started weeping profusely. He lost concentration and almost got himself and some of his men killed! His chief dragged him into base and SCREAMED for an explanation. My friend, still sobbing, said,

 
 “A rose was about to bloom;
Unaware of the approaching doom;
There was blood on its face;
 What a disgrace!
Its life would never be the same!
I am the cause, what a shame!”


and continued to cry. He was charged with being soft, sensitive, sentimental and senseless. Through a lot of effort he made it to the army, and with very little effort, he was sent out of it.


He left his job, and so his love left him. He learnt that the society would not accept him because he had honesty, he had sensitivity and he had swine flu. When he contracted it, there was no cure. He was on his death bed when I last met him. I put up a sorry face. He laughed at me and said,

“You know not how long you would live;
You are living in pieces!
I know exactly how long I would live;
And I am dying in peace;
Death, is more exciting than I thought it would be;
Somehow I feel that this is how life should be”

I put him at ease, and left with a lot of unease. My childhood friend, the perpetual poet, may not exist tomorrow. My friend, who saw the coolness in the eyes of a tutor on a scorching summer day, who saw the pain of a flower amidst war, who saw the pleasure of life in his death, is leaving. And he is leaving behind a glorious gift, the wonderful perspectives of a poet.


Friday, January 1, 2010

Celebrating Life


Fireworks! Parties! Filled up pubs and discos! Crazy drivers! Packed beaches and roads! People living it up like there’s no tomorrow! All this at midnight! Another typical celebration to mark the beginning of a new year according to the Gregorian calendar… In India alone, there are hundreds of other calendars in existence and practice which have the birth of their new year lined up. Quite a few ‘brand new’ years to be excited about!

I somehow, do not share such excitement, nor do I feel it. In my humble opinion, many people, if not most people around the world seem to have constrained time to a calendar and a clock. In my opinion, the celebration to mark the birth of a new year is just an excuse for procrastination. It is just an excuse for being happy.


The question that repeats in my head is, “If a calendar does not exist, how would this day be different from any other day?” The sun would rise the same way it has done for eons. The breeze would blow, the trees would grow, the flowers would bloom and the rivers would flow. Hmmm… Nothing seems to have changed the course of nature. Nature doesn’t seem to have realized the significance of the birth of a new year! Or is it just we, the humans, who have outwitted and outlearnt nature and have realized the ‘true’ value of time? I just don’t think so.




Let me state a couple of examples. Imagine a situation in which a scientist and a first grader are put in the same room to watch cartoons for a whole day. In all probability, time would fly for the kid and it would just come to a standstill for the scientist. For a person waking up from coma in the middle of June, if we were to tell him that he has woken up on the First of January, he’d simply accept it without questions. Or as Einstein explained the theory of relativity, “Time flies when you’re with your loved one. It doesn’t when you’re sitting on a hot pan”. Time is relative. Time is subjective. Time is just a perception.


Having said that, what is my two cents on time? In my perception, time exists only in the mind. And the only time that exists, is “NOW”. I have no power to go back in time and change what has happened. I have no power to go forward in time to see what the future holds for me. I’m just left with something in the present with which I can either learn from the past or work on something to create a desired future. And as I am typing this, time passes away like a stream. Never can I step into the same water again. And slowly I realize that nothing is as far away, as a moment gone by.


Yesterday is history. Tomorrow’s a mystery. Today is a gift. That’s why we call it the ‘present’


“Tuesdays with Morrie” is a beautiful book that I have read. It’s the story of a dying man meeting up one of his yester year students every Tuesday to do one final thesis - on life. For anyone who is too worried about the past, or the future, this book is a ‘must read’. The book beautifully illustrates, in the form of simple dialogues, how precious every moment is. And when a man who knows he’ll die in a few days speaks about time, it drives home the message in a very subtle yet powerful manner. It strings up a series of thoughts when I think, “How would I live my life if I know that I will not wake up to see the sunrise tomorrow?”


Thousands of people die of malnutrition, hunger, disease and accidents every single moment. What makes us think that we are exceptions? What gives us the guarantee that we would somehow live long enough to do everything that we want to? What makes us think that we may not meet with an accident or have a heart attack the next moment? What makes us believe that an unknown, mutated form of an incurable virus wouldn’t infect us today? What guarantee do we have that we will see each other tomorrow?


So, what makes the first of January according to the Gregorian calendar so special that everyone wants to live life to the fullest starting that day? Why not the first of February? Why not March? Why not LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST EVERY SINGLE DAY , EVERY SINGLE MOMENT?!